Getting fatter by the minute =(

yes... i've gained weight... a LOT and i'm not happy.  call me shallow, but the thing is that i'm not comfortable w/ it... and all i want is to be comfy... i just feel heavy and slow and flabby ^_^ lol... yea, i want the old form back.  i'm actually just writing this here so that i won't forget...i promise to lose 4lbs by the mid of our next module... the upper batch said that there would be 2 exams for the next module, and i aim to lose the 4lbs by the end of the first exam. 

so yes, i'm aiming to shed off ~4 lbs first so what am i gonna do?

>RESIST the junk food

--> i guess majority of the reason why i'm getting stouter by the minute is because now i keep on indulging on junk food: candy, chips, etc--things that i didn't even touch before.  i guess i just have to bring back the discipline of not eating MUCH of them... but for the next few weeks they're banned from my system

--> another thing that I SHOULD resist are the sweets and pastries in figaro :P

>Order nonfat latte first

--> i keep ordering grande nonfat caramel latte, and the caramel syrup might have something to do w/ the additional gain...well i don't know...this one i'd probably just not do for some time... i LOVE starbucks, and i don't think it's one of the main factors thats making me fat..but at any rate, i'm gonna stick to Iced TALL nonfat latte first, since it's also cheaper ^_^

>minimize the rice

--> i'm not really a rice person, but lately i've been eating a lot of carbs and rice...and i guess more than what i usually consume...so there... i might just eat rice at breakfast or lunch... and then just really light dinner

> EAT LIGHT DINNER

--> not heavy...no rice...maybe fruits instead

>EXERCISE

--> of course exercise..in fact one reason that i'm flabby is because i don't get to exercise anymore... unlike before when i exercise a lot...i'll bring it back, even just for 30mins/ day.  plus it'll increase my physical fitness anyway, so no harm done. :)

Alright, so that's what i'm gonna do for now...first... and then i'll see what'll happen. :)

i KNOW it's shallow to talk about this, but maybe one reason why im so concerned about it is that i've really worked hard on trying to lose weight before, and now i feel like i'm watching myself gain weight even 50X faster than the rate of losing weight... so now that i'm ~6 lbs heavier and fatter than before, i'm gonna DO something about it already. hehehe

so don't think i'm shallow...it's just my thing.  i like being thin because it feels light and it looks better on clothes. LOL! hehehe...it's a personal thing.

wish me luck! ^_^